Wednesday I alluded to the spiritual desert I experienced while living in Lloydminster, struggling with a trust betrayed and the lack of security of a church family. I have been through several spiritual deserts in my life and from each of them I have grown as a woman, stronger and better equipped. Though life is a perpetual season of growth, it is through the lean times that I have either clung to my Christian faith or turned my back on the Lord, feeling betrayed.
There are also the wonderful seasons of peace and fulfillment when accomplishments are fulfilled, stress is low and life is going well. It is in this season that I am enjoying life right now. The stress of our move is past, our homeschool year was incredible and Mother Care is flowing smoothly. I am also enjoying this season of emersion in my faith, absorbing the wisdom of those whom I am getting to know in our new church and community. There is a huge Christian population here, real Christians who you can trust and whose biblical wisdom is inspiring.
In this season I am also focusing on reading great books, easily found though a wonderful used bookstore in Stony Plain called Heaven Bound Books, owned by one of our AWANA leaders. The first one I am reading, Finding Inner Security by Janet Congo, has been a very healing and affirming book for me. I am finding myself given permission through the Lord, allowing me to lay the insecurities I have harboured for far too long and move on. That sound so blaze, but when you don't even recognize some aspects of your life as insecurities, by recognizing them and allowing yourself the forgiveness of harbouring them, the freedom is a relief and blessing. Beloved Unbeliever: Loving Your Husband Into the Faith by Jo Berry is one I will be working through in support of my beloved husband who himself is struggling spiritually in a world where providing for your family as a single wage earner and being family focused (while trying to balance career) is looked upon as irrational. And finally, Spiritual Mothering: The Titus 2 Model for Women Mentoring Women by Susan Hunt is my newest acquisition in preparation for our church’s Titus 2 program. I have only just begun and am very excited about the wisdom this book contains and the potential of our new program.
Have a wonderful weekend and I pray that each of you reading my blog are enjoying a season of security as well.
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