Sunday, March 31, 2013

Starting the year with changes!

When New Year 2013 rolled around, a mere two months ago, something felt different. Something expectant, like finding out your are pregnant, or anticipating a promotion. I pondered this a lot in the following weeks as I planned for a trip to visit my sister in Arizona, as well as a job change. The latter was not something I truly wanted as I loved working with my teams and learning alongside them. However, when your hard work is not appreciated, or rather negated, by a superior, it is hard to continue to work in that environment.

So I did what I could to save every penny in preparation for both and enjoyed the journey. My week in Arizona with my sister, our friends, and riding a horse with no name in the desert (true story!) was exactly what I needed to center myself for my return, and subsequent joblessness.

Interestingly, I had anticipated finding a job quickly and yet the weeks went by with resume writing, agency referrals, and interviews to no avail. This was strange for me as I have never had an issue with finding a job before. But then I have become pickier too... and so, it seems, has potential employers. If I want to make anything beyond $16 an hour it seems I now need a degree... even a certificate will often suffice. It doesn't matter than I have fifteen years experience... just that I have a piece of paper saying I have a clue. Even more annoying, I noticed that I would likely double my income, given the experience I currently have, with that piece of paper. Interesting indeed.

Frustrated, I looked at my options. I had four. Take a possible hit in pay to take a job I am vastly overqualified for by dumbing down my resume to get the job, go back to retail (which my kids have made VERY clear they don't want because of the crazt hours), keep applying and hope I eventually get hired, or go back to school. Hmm, what to do.

So being me, I chose two of the four. I will not dumb down anything, so option one was out. I had a long talk with my daughter and she felt very strongly about the importance of spending time with me, so option two was out. That left school and continued job searching.

While keeping this in mind, I looked at what I loved/excelled at and what I was willing to do to achieve a job that I loved/excelled at. After a lot of research and thought I looked into a business degree and found the perfect option. Athabasca University has an MBA program in which you can PLAR (meaning, you can use your life experience towards the degree). I called their admission office and was not only welcomed warmly, I was told that with my experience, not only did I not need to PLAR for admission to the MBA program (meaning I have the equivalent of a bachelors degree from experience), I could most likely challenge several of the courses in the program itself to shorten the time it took to achieve my degree. Most importantly, I can do it all via distance learning at my own pace and can work it around a full-time position. I applied for the MBA program, applied for a student loan for tuition the next day. I was quickly accepted into the program and am waiting to hear about the student loan. If approved, I will be starting in May!

Next up was finding a job while I work on my degree. I sat down and figured out exactly how much income I needed to cover just living expenses. Though I am not planning to reduce my income in order to find employment, I felt this was an important thing to know as I would rather have a less demanding job that paid a bit less than to have a job that interfered with school. My priorities are my kids (always) and my education (right now). I then went to two of my friends who do a lot of HR in their positions, and asked them to critique my resume. Finally, I added two key people to my references who were gracious enough to support me in this. Newly armed, I again struck out full force with my job hunting and am very excited about the new possibilities, given my new focus.

Last week brought a very promising position which I am fine-tuning my resume to. The position doesn't close for a bit, so I won't have an answer soon, but I am excited about this opportunity. I will continue my search in other areas as well, wish me luck!

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Crossroads

I sit here pondering. I feel my calling to support and empower others. I have done that in various ways in my life. Through teaching, through supporting mothers in childbirth, through staff development as a manager, and through leadership in non-profit organizations. What should my next step be?

I realized in the past two weeks that education is the key to continued growth in management. Do I pursue this avenue in order to continue on this path? Will my anticipated student loan debt be compensated by the dramatic difference in income I will recieve because of my obtaining a degree? Will I be happy on this corporate journey?

In contrast, I have been called to work in a creative position. The artistic part of me, that has lay dormant for a while, yearns towards this position. Yet will be be fulfiling enough for me? Will I even have the skills to do this?

What if I move back to my first love of supporting mothers during the most pivotal time of their lives? Will it be able to support us financially? Will I make a beneficial difference to these families?

Or what of teaching, so challenging and so rewarding? A huge endeavour if I pursue the plans I have in fulfilling this option. Will the rewards be enough for the workload ahead?

Decisions. Provoking, scary, exhilarating. Each path is so diverse yet similar... they are all part of me and who I am. Hm. Can I do one well? What about more than one? What if I chose three... or all four? They all lead to similar outcomes, and if done well, would have a singularly poignant conclusion, one I had sought years ago. Decisions.