Crossroads

I sit here pondering. I feel my calling to support and empower others. I have done that in various ways in my life. Through teaching, through supporting mothers in childbirth, through staff development as a manager, and through leadership in non-profit organizations. What should my next step be?

I realized in the past two weeks that education is the key to continued growth in management. Do I pursue this avenue in order to continue on this path? Will my anticipated student loan debt be compensated by the dramatic difference in income I will recieve because of my obtaining a degree? Will I be happy on this corporate journey?

In contrast, I have been called to work in a creative position. The artistic part of me, that has lay dormant for a while, yearns towards this position. Yet will be be fulfiling enough for me? Will I even have the skills to do this?

What if I move back to my first love of supporting mothers during the most pivotal time of their lives? Will it be able to support us financially? Will I make a beneficial difference to these families?

Or what of teaching, so challenging and so rewarding? A huge endeavour if I pursue the plans I have in fulfilling this option. Will the rewards be enough for the workload ahead?

Decisions. Provoking, scary, exhilarating. Each path is so diverse yet similar... they are all part of me and who I am. Hm. Can I do one well? What about more than one? What if I chose three... or all four? They all lead to similar outcomes, and if done well, would have a singularly poignant conclusion, one I had sought years ago. Decisions.