Mel lamented to me this week, "I wish I had your energy, your vitality, your thirst for life. You are infectious, your exude energy to others, they are drawn to you because of it." I was left speechless as I watched her sigh, then slowly sip her coffee. I stumbled over my words as I started to dispute her claim and she looked at me with humour in her eyes, "Don't argue with me, you know it's true."
We sat in silence, we often do that. This silence is a comfortable place close friends give you, where you know you are not judged. I thought about her claim as I slowly drank my tea. I know I have a more than average energy level, not a nervous energy however. I'm sure I would have been labelled ADHD in elementary school. I think it was because I was usually a few steps ahead of what we were currently learning, or was simply was not interested.
I laughed to myself suddenly, wondering about the many friends I now had. This was painful cry from when I was younger and so painfully shy. I couldn't hold together a full sentence when speaking to anyone outside of my family. Mel looked up and I simply nodded in agreement, she was right.
Since then I have wondered why I have this energy level, this enthusiasm. I have felt stifled for a while, feeling my energy levels running a bit lower than normal. This evening I was sitting in the hot tub contemplating ancient native beliefs surrounding the energy in everything, animals, plants, even rocks and mountains. Everyone knows I need to go and recharge regularly. The best is by a fast river, preferably a fresh mountain river, especially with a waterfall. Mountains come next and around horses comes a close third.
The jets suddenly turned on and I turned them off quickly. I like to sit in silence when I want to think. As they slowed I felt the energy of the water rushing past me, the bubbles surrounding me. It was exhilarating and too quickly gone. I suddenly had an irresistible urge to stand by the waterfall Randall and I had found one beautiful May weekend. My body ached to feel the power it had given me. The power of nature. I have needed this for a while. Go to the mountains and ski, ride a horse through snow-covered valleys, or figure skate on a frozen lake. I am going to go, alone, and re-energize.
We sat in silence, we often do that. This silence is a comfortable place close friends give you, where you know you are not judged. I thought about her claim as I slowly drank my tea. I know I have a more than average energy level, not a nervous energy however. I'm sure I would have been labelled ADHD in elementary school. I think it was because I was usually a few steps ahead of what we were currently learning, or was simply was not interested.
I laughed to myself suddenly, wondering about the many friends I now had. This was painful cry from when I was younger and so painfully shy. I couldn't hold together a full sentence when speaking to anyone outside of my family. Mel looked up and I simply nodded in agreement, she was right.
Since then I have wondered why I have this energy level, this enthusiasm. I have felt stifled for a while, feeling my energy levels running a bit lower than normal. This evening I was sitting in the hot tub contemplating ancient native beliefs surrounding the energy in everything, animals, plants, even rocks and mountains. Everyone knows I need to go and recharge regularly. The best is by a fast river, preferably a fresh mountain river, especially with a waterfall. Mountains come next and around horses comes a close third.
The jets suddenly turned on and I turned them off quickly. I like to sit in silence when I want to think. As they slowed I felt the energy of the water rushing past me, the bubbles surrounding me. It was exhilarating and too quickly gone. I suddenly had an irresistible urge to stand by the waterfall Randall and I had found one beautiful May weekend. My body ached to feel the power it had given me. The power of nature. I have needed this for a while. Go to the mountains and ski, ride a horse through snow-covered valleys, or figure skate on a frozen lake. I am going to go, alone, and re-energize.
